"Such Beautiful Dignity in Self-Abuse"

"It happens in the smallest ways ; it happens all the time

And if you've never had your sight, what does it mean to be blind?....

All these little suicides, they hardly make a mark

I can take these funhouse rides;  I'm a natural in the dark"

Little Suicides - Golden Palominos

"I touch the fire and it freezes me.  I look into it and it's black.  Why can't I feel?  My skin should crack and peel.  I want the fire back....

So I will walk through the fire - 'cause where else can I turn?...

She is drawn to the fire - some people never learn...."

From the Buffy The Vampire Slayer episode Once More With Feeling